One of those days

Having one of those up and down days. Not feeling very good right now. Day started out ok but now not feeling good. Again wondering what my purpose is in life. The reason I moved here was to see my kids more. That sure is not gapping. Praying God shows me his purpose for all of this! 

The pain

The pain is overwhelming to the point of extreme. It's an everyday battle of just trying to live a normal life. But how do I do it? The testing my blood the insulin and the feeding just take control. Suffering is much harder when I am alone. I beg God every day to take all this way. I even ask for death so all the pain and suffering will go away. Throwing in the towl is no option so I just grit my teeth and go about my day. I know Gid is near. I know it is a fact but some days I can't handle the constant pain! What good am I to anyone these days? So today I will endure what is in front of me. 

What are we doing part two

My point that the American Church is in trouble keeps on getting clearer to me. Sadly many of the famous pastors and preachers here in America are watering down the Bible or just plainly leaving the truth of the Bible all together. Paul warned of this in the letters he wrote to Timothy and it seems it is clearly what we are living out here in America. Truth of the Bible has come to, it really does not mean that. WHAT?? It seems it's more important to fill our church's then to preach the truth. We are afraid if we preach the truth then people will not come to church. Should that really be the goal of church anyway? Did Jesus say go fill your church building anyway you can? No He did not. He told us to make disciples.

It is important that we do not follow a person. The only person we should follow is Jesus and our guide needs to be the Bible. We need to read the Bible ourselves and know it well so when people we follow or listen to go astray we don't. We need to be careful who we follow. It seems that most Christians put up with false or bad teaching. It seems that is a sin that's o.k. But let a pastor or preacher sin in other ways like, adultery, drunkenness, homosexuality, ect,  we don't give them a second chance even after they have repented of there sin and turned from there sin.

The Bible is full of people who have sinned and then when they repented and turned from there sin God still used them. It's time that we call sin, sin. But when people repent we need to restore them even restore them back to ministry.

It's time we take false teaching seriously! It's time we make the main thing the main thing which is Jesus Christ. We are now in a battle for truth not from outside the church but from within. It makes us feel good to hear that God loves us, which is true. But God is love and just! There is consequences and penalty for sin. I have sinned a lot in my life and I am forgiven but I am still living out the consequences of my sin. A little poison in a glass of milk will kill you! !

Thank you for reading my ramblings today!

Keep Walking!

life is up and down

My day started like this. Good and fun as i took a picture for red nose day.

then tonight my feeding tube came out and i had to go to the ER. They had to put a temp one in until they could put the right one in. Here are some pics of that.

There it is coming out. They put a shorter one in because the one I need is very long and had to be put in with a scope so I have to be in an OR

Probably more info u wanted to know 😜

Keep walking!

The Greatest Commandment

Do you know what Jesus said the Greatest Commandment is? Well I am glad you asked:

The Greatest Commandment

34 Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together.35 One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: 36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[a] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment.39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[b] 40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Loving God with your all and loving people with your all! What does that look like? As I grow closer to Christ it looks diffrent than it did a few years ago. It is easy to say I am a follower of Christ, but it's another thing to love God with all you got! We will never do this perfect but to go after this goal is what I need to be doing. God has given us the Bible which is how He talks to us many times through the Holy Spirit. I have noticed when I read His word and spend time in prayer my love for Him grows. When my love for Him grows my love for people grows. I can easily play church and forgot about loving others. Playing church for me is just going through the motions. Go to church, read the bible for about five minutes becuses I have to. Our faith is so much more than that. The Bible tells us that we need to read His word because we are so in love with God that we want to be more like Him. So if I am loving God with my all I will then love people like I should. 

This has been my verse this year:

Luke 18:9-14New International Version (NIV)

The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector

9 To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’

13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’

14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

What a great scripture! I am know better than anyone else. I need to come to Christ with a broken heart! Then He can use me to reach and love other people. 

Keep walking......

What are we doing?

I believe that the Church in America today has lost her purpose. It seems that a lot of Church's today have become a "Social Justice Club" or just a Sunday morning hang out club. Gone our the days it seems that the Church family reaches out to the hurting. Now there are some Church's out there that do visit those who need comfort, but for the most part it seems most Church goers or member's are happy with punching there spiritual time card on Sunday and call it good. It all so seems we think bigger is better and that throwing money at a problem will fix everything. When I read the Bible and the Bible needs to be what we stand on and not cultural. I see the New Testimont believers did it so different than we are today.

Here are some scriptures to help explain what I am saying:

The Sheep and the Goats

31 “When the Son of Man comes in his glory, and all the angels with him, he will sit on his glorious throne. 32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate the people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. 33 He will put the sheep on his right and the goats on his left.

34 “Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’

37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’

40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

41 “Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. 42 For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’

44 “They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’

45 “He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’

46 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”

Jesus is not talking about works here. If we are truly His we will be like the sheep. The Church is the people of God those who call themselves followers of Jesus Christ. Can you say you are His sheep. Do you feed the poor or just let the government take care of that? Do you visit the sick, either in the hospital or while the person is at home sick? And what about the those who need clothes, shelter and are just in need? In Acts chapter two we see that the belivers of that day sold everything so no one would be in need. Crazy idea? No! I think it's something we as a body of Christ should be doing. But it is so easy to let the government do it. Many Christians I know are upset how people get food stamps, health care and all the other stuff the government gives. I hear people say that is not the governments job. If it's not there job than it's ours. 

What can I do today to help those in need? More on this issue will come. 

Keep walking....