Jesus, a true friend

When I am weak He is strong! My body might be fading away, but He restores my soul. He comforts me in times of physical and mental weakness. He is the great doctor who not only is able to heal my physical body but more important He heals my sinful life and makes me whole. He is the potter who molds me and makes me every day. Pain may come, but He is the medicine that I need to take every day. When in the desert He is the drink of water that is all ways there. He never runs away but is all ways near. People may turn against me, people may throw stones, but He throws no stones. There is no friend like Jesus, there is none like Him. He understands my pain and suffering because He to went through pain, His friends turned against Him, He truly understands. What a friend I have in Jesus!

Hospital

I just got our of the hospital. I went in Monday with my stomach acting up and my diabetes. I was out of it most of the time, but the Boone hospital is pretty nice. It still amazes me how much God is with us during our hardest times. And how He works every thing out. I was a little concerned that I was not going to get out by next week to see my kids. But thank you Jesus I got out today. It will give me a few days to rest up at home before the trip.

It is easy for me to fall into depression after being in the hospital. The enemy knows how to get to me. But as my sponsor tells me feelings are just feelings. Not much to say today, but just wanted to write a short blog.

Keep Walking!

Oh Diabetes......

Diabetes, what a wonderful thing! I am grateful when I was diagnosed at 14 no one told me how bad it could really get! Over the years you hear people say, don't let the diabetes control you, control your diabetes! Well that's all fine and dandy, but its easier said then done. The last few days I have been feeling like an 80 year old man. I am still hurting from my sledding accident, but that seemed to be getting better but the last few days I have been hurting. Then you thorn in my "mental problems" the major depression and anxiety and it's been a rough few weeks. We all have our thrown in the flesh, but sometimes I would like to just have all the thorns in my life gone.

It is so easy for me to loose perspective on life while I am suffering. I often think what good am I to this world. I try to work for an hour or an hour and a half and I end in bed for three days! It gets so frustrating.

Today I started out o.k. but could not stay for all of the stuff at church today. And Easter is my favorite holiday. And I was planning on being around people today so I would not have a pity party about not being with my kids. But I am learning, slowly, that in these times of pain, frustration, I need to cling to Jesus. And hold on to the verse below!

Come to Me, and I Will Give You Rest

²⁵ At that time Jesus declared, “I thank you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, that you have hidden these things from the wise and understanding and revealed them to little children; ²⁶ yes, Father, for such was your gracious will.^{[g] 27} All things have been handed over to me by my Father, and no one knows the Son except the Father, and no one knows the Father except the Son and anyone to whom the Son chooses to reveal him. ²⁸ Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:25-30

It's O.K. to be a looser!

And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: but whosoever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it. Luke 9:23-24 KJV

This verse which I have read many times hit me last night. As I walk through this new journey of faith things in the Bible mean a lot more to me. One of my fears is that people see me as a looser. In the world's eyes I might be, but who I am as a follower of Jesus is found in Jesus Christ. As a Christian we are never promised that it is going to be easy. We want it to be easy, but it's not. So if I am willing to loose every thing for Christ, I will be saving my life. Does not make since if I loose it all I will then gain it all. But this verse is not talking about stuff. If I gave Christ my mind, body and soul I might loose some worldly things but I will gain more than I ever thought it was possible. Like, peace, joy, love, patience and the list goes on. It is so easy for me to justify things that I know that do not honor God. I use to get in to fights with people when they called me a looser. Today I can say thank you! I want to walk the walk more than I talk the talk. God is able to use the losers in the world more than the proud. Or the humble in heart.

The Cross

Wow, I have been slacking on this blog the last few weeks. It's been a good few weeks with some up and downs. It is not all ways so easy trying to be more like Jesus. It is so easy to water down morals when the world says it is o.k. to do this or that. But for me at the end of the day I have to either choose to be a Jesus man or not. I fall on my face with this very often, but like one book says, we are working towards spiritual progress not perfection.

This time of year is pretty tough for me. Easter was a big deal for our family. I like Easter even more than Christmas since without Christ death, we would still be in big trouble. We would all ways make a big deal with the kids on Easter. So since I don't get to see my kids much and wont see them this Easter I am struggling a little bit.

When we think of the cross many of us don't think it's that big of a deal. Since we see the cross so much. But the cross was very painful for Jesus. It's amazing to me how much He gave up to pay for my sin.

Well, going to try and post more often again!

Keep Walking!