The Holy Spirit

It's the week of Christmas. I am excited I get to spend Christmas Eve with my kids! The last two weeks have been good and bad. I am slowly cleaning up some messes I have caused from the last month and a half or so. I have learned that even when we don't drink we can sure cause messes in our lives and others. It is hard time for me to obey what God wants. As a Christian I have the Holy Spirit who convicts me and sometimes I ignore the Holy Spirit. I might be able to do that for awhile, but the conviction gets so strong I either listen or try to ignore more which does not work for me. I get into trouble when I start playing God.

It's been a rough one......

It's been awhile since I have written in here. Honestly I have not known what to write as I have really been struggling. The biggest away of struggle has been my spiritual life. I was not obeying God in an area and so instead of listing to Him I just was trying to step away from Him. Made a horrible move and was mad at the church, because I knew they where going to call me on my sin and I withdrew from the Church. Not some of my best moments as a Christian. Obeying God has not been a strong point for me in my life. Last Tuesday was a spiritual awaking if you will, had my eyes open to what I was doing and now I am doing the best I can to clean up that wreckage. Hurt people in the process which was not what I attended. I seem to mess things up pretty good. But, I have confessed my sin to the Lord and others. Like He tells us to do in his word. It is amazing to me all the wreckage I have caused in the pass. Like my Pastor growing up use to say, Sin will take you farther than you want to go keep you longer than you want to stay and cost you more than you want to pay. So, very true!

Then on top of that I have been struggling with some deep depression. I thought that after I did what I needed to do and get right with God that my depression would ease up. But they tell me I have bi-polar. So they are trying some new med and it's been hard being on it. I am just feeling like crap all the time. Trying to just pull through.

I am going to keep walking....