I am struggling so much tonight. Had a huge weekend this part weekend. Went to Chicago to audition for my comedy. I guess I am struggling with the let down. I am very depressed tonight and I feel like drinking. My biggest discouragement tonight is I can't get a hold of my kids. My ex wife tryst to keep them away from me and has been doing this for years. I get into moods like this and I feel like throwing in the towel. I moved out here to be able to see my kids more, but that sure is not happening.
But my feelings are just feelings and I know these feelings will pass but I am sure struggling tonight!
Monday, January 26, 2015
The Struggle
Monday, January 12, 2015
Sunday, January 11, 2015
Seize the day!
For some reason I have not been blogging much the last few weeks. My health seems to be getting better the last few weeks. I have been able to start eating regular food which is great. Getting ready to try out my comedy in Chicago at the end of the month. Trying to take more positive chances in life. To get out of my comfort zone. It would be easy to just stay home and not take chances. It is scary sometimes. What's the worst thing that could happen? I started to volunteer at a local radio station here in town. I love doing radio stuff.
After all the health stuff I went through last year I am trying to "seize the day" as much as I can. I way to much focus on the past and let it slow me down. But the past is the past. Easier said then done looking forward. Fear is the cause of most of my problems today. I am leaning that I should not be afraid of failure. Failure for me is not trying to move forward in life and to try new things. I have in my life done and tried a lot of negative things in my life. I am going to do positive things.
I hope I can remember to write in this more. Let's all seize this day for the good!
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