Trying to stay positive. That seems to be every bodies
answer to my struggles the last few days. My depression has been hitting me
pretty hard all weekend. I try daily to suffer well and to stay positive. I
have been feeling like God's wiping boy these days. My health just seems to not
give up and feeling better is a day to day thing. One day I am feeling o.k. and
the next I am not. Being sick and going in and out of the hospital is not new
to me, it's been my life pretty much my whole life. So what happens if
"this to shall pass" never passes. My faith has been shaken this time
around. The question I struggle with is how can I do any good being as sick as
I am. It seems that I can't catch a break. A never ending and on going sickness
that seems that will not get any better.
Had two Doctor
appointments today. Saw my stomach doc and he said in about three weeks they
are going to put a better tube in my stomach. Not sure what's wrong with the
one I have, but I guess it's better. My blood sugar is finally doing a little
better. Having high blood sugars cause my emotions to go crazy. God allows what
He allows and some days that just drives me crazy. I wish I would know the
reason for all this.
I am going to try and keep walking....
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