Resting in Him

That deep depression that just does not go away. I have this pain in my heart that keeps hurting and I don’t know why. I am reading my Bible and praying and I am reaching out and I am still depressed. I feel like I am in this pit and I can’t get out. I guess I am tired of being alone all the time. Being sick and alone. I have my hope in Jesus so why am I depressed? I guess many Christians who struggle with depression ask that question. I have been diagnosed with bipolar and sometimes it gets hard. I take my meds when I am should but it is a battle. Somedays I feel like giving up, but I know that I can’t.

I have learned through the past few years feels come and go but I don’t have to act on them. That’s why I need to know the Truth of God’s Word. His Truth never changes! Even if I don’t feel like it, it’s true! The more I can read His Word the better I am when I get when I get depressed. It’s o.k to be down but it’s not o.k. to have bad actions when I am down. I can cry and cry out to the Lord, that is o.k. He cares and listens when I cry out. But my old ways of dealing with things are not o.k.

When David was struggling he wrote a Psalm. We can see through his writings he struggled with depression. There is something about writing and writing to God that helps us out. My heart might be down cast right now but my love for Jesus never fades! During the last few days I have been reading the Bible more and praying and crying out to Jesus. He hears me and loves me! I just want Him to take away my sickness and pain, but for some reason God sees fit to have me in this situation. It’s hard, but when I am weak He is strong! Today I am going to rest in Him!

Depression an unfriendly foe

Depression is an unfriendly foe. It comes in waves and tries to stay. It wants to keep me down. Fills my head with thoughts that I would be better off dead. It goes away for awhile but it seems to never stay away. It wants to take away my hope and keep it away.
But I need to focus more on Him. Remember David who kept going in and out of the pit. Remember Elijah who seemed to all so struggle with depression.
He is my hope and stay! May I remember Him when depression has a grip on me!
Keep walking...

Depression Sucks

I have had years of counseling and u would think that I would be able to get it together. But depression is something that for me never goes away. I have times where I am feeling good but it keeps coming back. I take meds for it and I read my bible and pray and yet some times it just keeps coming. I am in one of those periods where depression is real bad. The diabetes and alcoholism sure don't help. I know I have hope in Christ, but some times I start loitering hope thinking I am never going to get out of this.
But I am going to keep walking!