A year in Iowa

Wow, its been way to long since I have written in my blog. Time has just got away from me. It's been a year since I moved back to Iowa. I knew it was not going to be easy, but did not know it was going to be this hard. It seems since I have bee here my health went to pot. And being closer to the kids have not worked out as well as I would have hoped. The biggest thing I am still struggling with is loneliness and knowing what to do with my time. I was reminded how brittle my health is this weekend. I was in charge of the church picnic and the Talent show we had there. It all went very well But I have not been feeling well the last two days. And every time I see my kids it takes a lot out of me.
I was thinking about taking two classes at DMACC but hostler I don't think I can do it right now. I am really struggling with what my purpose is. What am I suppose to be doing. I just don't want to be known as the sick guy. It seems my name has been on the prayer chain all most every other week. It is hard having diabetes and the complications of it. Every diabetic is different and we all struggle with different things. Some people do a better job at controlling there blood sugars and are able to live a "normal" life. Than there is guys like me that have a hard time controlling there diabetes.

I think that I made the right chose by moving closer to my kids. But for me three hours is still a long way.

I am going to keep walking...