Life goes on

I find myself sick again. I have bronchitis. It gets frustrating to get sick all the time. I don't like being known as the sick person. I have been having a lot of emotions the last few days.
It is harder than I thought it would be living three hours away from the kids. I desire to see them more and want to be a good dad. It seems the longer I stay sober the less my ex wife trusts me. I still can't bring them to Ames which makes it hard.
I get frustrated and wonder if I should just stop and throw in the towel. Which I am not going to do. Old friends of mine won't give me the time of day.
I am still struggling with loneliness and what my purpose in life is. My health seems to hold me down.
Today I am going to give all this to God and keep walking