A time like this

As I sit on my porch this morning my mind is so full off stuff. Some good and some not so good. I have been here in Iowa for a year now and what a year it has been. I have wondered many times if this was the right move. I have asked God many times, was this the best idea? Did I misunderstand You? There are days, O.K. most days that I wonder what am I doing here and what is my purpose. I first of all came here to be closer to my kids. And I am finally getting to see them on a regular bases. So that is a big purpose for being here. I get to see them one weekend a month, so what's my purpose the rest o the days?

The answer is I don't really know. And I daily have to accept that fact. I could act super spiritual here and make up a spiritual answer. But the truth is I just don't know. What I do know is that I get up every day ready and willing to serve God in any way I can. My hearts desire is to preach and teach. I don't know if that will ever happen, but what I do know is that God gives me opportunity to serve Him in little and big ways every day.

Yesterday the sermon was about Queen Easter. And she was in that place, "For a time like this". I need to stop asking why I am here and starting living in the attitude that I am here for a time like this. Not having my will be done but God's!

Keep walking.....