Struggle

My heart breaks every time I see my kids and have to leave them. I mourn over the lost of my family. I am still struggling with regret of all the things I have done. I am struggling with deep depression that I just can't figure out how to get out of. Then for months my health has been bad.
Some times I just don't know what to do. I am trying to do the next right thing, but some times I don't know what the right thing is.
I am so tired of feeling physically and emotionally sick. God says He will never give us more than we can handle, but some days I wonder.