Praising God in Suffering

You would think as much as I have been sick in my life I would be use to it. But I still hate being sick. And I am not patient and it all ways takes longer to get better than I would like. Went to my regular doctor yesterday. So I told her about my pulled growing muscle and she agreed that is what it is. I was worried I did something to my hernia again. But it's just a pulled muscle but it really hurts. I don't know why God allows me to get hurt and sick so much but I am sure it is to teach me something. Having type one diabetes is a every day battle. And when I am hurt sugars go up. I have been thinking about what Paul says in 2 Corinthians 12. He asked God to take away his thorn in the flesh and God said His grace is sufficient. Paul says when we are weak He is strong.

Days like this I get frustrated and wish I did not have so much crap to deal with. I have type one diabetes, major depression, complications with my stomach due to diabetes and on top of all that I have alcoholism. Today I tried to do a few things and the pain was to much so I had to lay down. It is easy for me to feel sorry for my self. I am bored today and I start thinking no one has visited me no one cares, poor me. That is a BAD attitude. I need to have the attitude of Paul. This thing might last a couple more days so I am going to choose to rest in Him and try to choose joy!

I am going to keep walking