Am I willing to stay?

Have you ever gone to a church service where you feel it was all geared toward you? Not that the pastor or the music leader did it on purpose, that God geared the music and the message for you. Well that happened to me today. The Second Hymn of the day:

"Precious Lord, Take My Hand"

"Precious Lord, take my hand, lead me on, help me stand I am tired, I am weak, I am worn, Thru the storm, thru the night, lead me on to the light Take my hand, precious Lord, Lead me home."

"When my way grows drear, precious Lord, Linger near When my life is almost gone Hear my cry, Hear my call, hold my hand lest I fall Take my hand, precious Lord, lead me Home"

Talk about a song that I feel like I am living right now! And all the songs had that theme but that one hit me the most. In the sermon the question was asked am I willing to go where the Lord wants me? For me the question is more like am I willing to stay where the Lord wants me? And I never have looked at it that way before. I have heard sermon's like this before and of course Isiah 6:8 was read. The Lord asked Isaiah whom shall I send and Isaiah answered send me. My pastor all so talked about Jonah. And yes Johan was asked to go. He did not want to go and then He was forced to go.

For me the question is am I willing to stay. I came back to Ames to see my kids more. That is not working out so well. So I want to just leave. It has not been easy being here. My health has taken a dive and I have been really lonely. So today loud and clear I heard God ask me, Are you willing to stay in Ames and serve me. And today the answer is yes. I don't know what I am suppose to do here. I don't even know what my purpose in life is any more. But yes Lord use me I am willing!