My crazy week

It's been all most a week since I blogged last. I was on a roll there for awhile blogging almost every day. Life is good today because I don't have to drink for any reason any more! And that my friends is a great thing.
Life can be good even thou I am having some struggles. Off and on for a couple of years I have been struggling with pain on my right side and in my groaning area. Had it checked out a few times and I just concluded it was my diabetic stomach issue that I have had for years, well last week problems started again. So I went to my doctor on Saturday and after checking me she thought I had a prostate infection. So she gave me some antibiotics and some other meds and sent me on my way. She all so did a blood test to make sure it was not cancer, and it's not. By Monday the pain was very bad. So I went back to her.My doctor decided  to check me for a hernia and it was a lower hernia and I think I have had it for awhile. So I went ti see the surgeon and was on the table by seven. I guess the hernia was worst then they thought. I Spent the night in the hospital and got out Monday  at noon. I guess it's a slow recovery. When your diabetic and have surgery  I guess your blood sugars hit the roof. So I got no sleep Monday night, but the blood sugars are better. This surgery and the hernia has been the worst pain I have every gone through. My appointment with my sergan is on the 12 and the nurse told me that I will be having pain at least until then. I am thankful that my dad had been off he has been helping me out a lot. The hardest thing is laying down and then trying to get up.
I was supposed to see my kids this weekend, but I can't make it. I am suppose to fly out for Alaska on the 19th to see my mom and my brother and his family. Hoping I will be able to still go.
It seems like I have been sick a lot again. On Sunday I will have 14 months sober. Some times in recovery u think that u won't be sick and everyone will trust and accept you. But that's not all ways the case. I probably will be struggling with my health the rest of my life. What I am trying to do is to keep a good attitude and all ways try to remember that God is in full control. Selfpity is easy to to get into, but the more I focus in the good it is easier not to go there.
And the other thing I am working in this week is this, it's not my job to care what others think of me. I worry that people think I fake some of my sickness, but my sponser says that is not for me to worry about!
Any way there's where I am at today. Writting this blog on my phone while on the couch. Have a great day