Continued Struggle

For the last 12 months I have been really sick. I have been sick most of my life. When I was 14 I found out that I had diabetes. Most people don't understand what it's like to have diabetes and all the complications. This year seems it's been the year of the complications. I get one then another and then another pops up. For about two weeks now I have struggling with neuropathy like crazy. It just came in sudden and bad. So bad that I can hardly walk. Because of my Gastroparesis where my stomach doesn't work narcotics slows down my stomach. So at first they tried to use everything they could that was non narcotic, but I have to be on them. 

I have to go through a bunch of hoops before I can see the pain clinic where they want to put electroids in my nerves. So that won't happen until December. I am having memory problems and having a hard time keeping track of all my meds.

I have really been struggling with being lonely. I know God is in control but it gets real hard sometimes!

Rough day!

Today was another rough and frustrating day. The question I have been asking myself self today is what is my purpose in life? Is it just to suffer and to be lonely? Sometimes loneliness gets to me as I am home day after day. I don't even feel like doing my podcast somedays. I like many divorced single people wish for that second chance but I wonder what women would ever want to be with me. There is no good answers or maybe no answers to these questions right now. I know that I need to cling to Jesus right now during this storm in my life. It may seem dark and bleak right now but I need to still need to keep hoping things will get better!

Rest in Him

This is one of thos things that u want to write in more than I have. I have not felt like doing podcast the last couple of days, frankly it's been hard to do anything. I am still using the feeding tube, sneaking food now and the. Now I am fighting neuropathy in my feet and legs. They have me in some pain meds that is making me super tired. Life has been hard and it seems just to keep in getting worst. 

So tired of being such, but I need to rest in Him.

The introduction of Peaches Ministries

In the midst of a pretty bad few days of some health struggles I have decided to launch something I have been thinking and praying about for a few weeks. It does not really change much, but I hope it will open some doors to help people. I am going to use YouTube more and keep using this blog. Right now I am going to keep using social media to reach people. This ministries purpose is to help Christians who have struggles to keep on keeping on and to reach the hurting non-Christians for Christ.

Even as a Christian most of us are struggling with something and sometimes we think we are all alone in our struggle. We are not all alone and that's where the ministry comes in. Real lives and a real God!

Want to join me in reaching people? Have gifts that would benefit the hurting? Then please contact me at crazyeaches@yahoo.com

Good day then not so good

One of the biggest struggles of having a chronic illness is knowing how much to push yourself. I was able to go to the fair Saturday but I am sure paying for it today. My day started out good but started feeling horrid late morning. It is a hard balance to know what you can and can't do.

Most people don't understand this struggle. One minute or day you are feeling good then your health gets bad again. Life is sure a one day even one hour at a time.

The above was written a couple days ago. I am having bad nerve pain in my chest they think. But to make sure I have a heart doctor appointment today. The pain in my chest is extreme. Hopefully they can figure out what it is and relive this pain. It sure gets frustrating. But, I need to cling to my faith! 

I have on and off mild chest pain since I have been 18 because of the nerve damage. When it gets this bad they want to make sure it's not my heart. It's hard dealing with chronic nerve pain and for some reason it is pretty bad this week.

Learn from my mistakes

It is so easy to make mistakes and then not learn from them. Temptation seems to always be around the corner and it's easy to fall in the same traps. That's why I always need to keep my eyes on Jesus. 

Why I am a Christian