The pain

The pain is overwhelming to the point of extreme. It's an everyday battle of just trying to live a normal life. But how do I do it? The testing my blood the insulin and the feeding just take control. Suffering is much harder when I am alone. I beg God every day to take all this way. I even ask for death so all the pain and suffering will go away. Throwing in the towl is no option so I just grit my teeth and go about my day. I know Gid is near. I know it is a fact but some days I can't handle the constant pain! What good am I to anyone these days? So today I will endure what is in front of me.