Sometimes when I go to blog my head is empty. Well, that happens a lot to me any way. But when you blog you want to write something profound and wonderful. And I probably fall short on the profound and wonderful thing all the time. A lot of stuff is going through my head this morning I guess I just cant get it all to stop in one place for me to have a nice organized blog this morning. So here are my unorganized thoughts going through my head.
First, the wind. The wind is blowing pretty good this morning. My phone tells me its going 45mph. Now that's some pretty good wind! As I was laying in my bed this morning I was thinking about how I cant see the wind, but I can see the effects of the wind. I cant see the wind but I know its not there. That lead me to think about my faith. I cant see God, but I know He is there. Hebrews 11:1 and 2 says, Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. 2 This is what the ancients were commended for.
When you start talking about God some folks start getting uneasy, but in my recovery and life in general I must believe in God. I cant see the wind but I know its there and I cant see God but I know He is there. I can see God through the things that He is doing in my life and others around me. Now Hebrews 11 is an interesting chapter. I like to call it the Hall of Faith. Its where the writer of Hebrews talks about the great men and woman of the Old Testament who had great faith. When you take a close look at these great men and woman you see that most of them, wait for it, were not perfect. WOW! You have a drunk, a murder, and adultery, a prostitute, and many other failers among these great people of faith. BUT GOD! Yes, but God still used them. Even though they failed they kept there faith. They fell down but got back up and kept serving God. I tend to think sometimes that God can not use me because I have failed in so many ways, but if God can use these folks then I guess He can use me.
As I read Hebrews Chapter 11 two guys for me stand out, Elijah and David. It seems that they both struggled with depression. For David just read the Psalms. You can really see his despair, but he keeps his Hope in the Lord. Elijah struggled with depression after he had a great victory. I can relate to these guys who struggle with depression in the Bible because I have struggled with it for years. We don't like talking about it because it is not cool to be depressed and it is looked down on. You must be weak if you struggle with depression and you must not be walking a good "Christian" walk if you struggle with it some people may say. But depression is a real thing and something that God understands. There is hope for me if I keep my eyes on Jesus. And for me using the tools He has given me. Those tools are seeing a counselor and taking meds. And I keep going to AA meetings.
There is a great website that has a lot of good articles on this and other issues. It is http://www.nacr.org/
I don't know how wind led to depression, but it did. When we are depressed we need to deal with it and when there are those who are struggling with it around us we need to encourage them. I just read a good article from the website I talked about. This time of year many folks who are like me struggle with the holidays. I am up here with lots of family in Alaska but I am struggling with the fact that I can not see or even talk to my kids at this time. It would be easy for me just to slip in a deep depression and feel sorry for my self. But I cant do that! I have to go to AA meetings, go to church and just keep on keeping on. I had a guy from AA once tell me that pain equals growth and I hold on to that very deeply during times like this.
Today I am going to keep walking!
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