Saturday, May 17, 2014
FEAR, What is good for......
Finally feeling better after a horrible health week. Ended up not going to the doctor. Things are getting better. You would think after struggling with my health for most of my life I would be getting use to it or at least handle it better. Some times I handle it great and than there is those days that I get so frustrated.
One of my biggest fears in life is that I just exist. That I don't make a big impact on peoples life. I have all ways liked being the center of attention. But it is really more than that. Right now in my life I can't do a whole lot. And I fear that I am just existing. I don't know if that make since, but I know I will never be the next Billy Graham or be a famous comedian. I have all ways liked reaching out to people and doing things for folks, but lately I do good to get our of bed.
Another fear of mine is being lonely. It gets lonely being home by yourself all the time. Some times those to fears class and I pray, O.K. God just take me home! The every day battle of my health gets so old sometimes.
Well, my next blog will have answers to these fears of mine. Hope this all makes since.
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I understand completely Gary! I broke my back at 23, I had been such a gifted athlete prior to that, I suffer every day as well, that,s why I loved the narcotics, if I took enough I could deny that I was disabled, I was too f ing young to be so limited, not fair,I was a single Mom. I worked 2 jobs! The list is endless of the hardships I felt I had to face alone...we didn,t have FB, cell phones, but I always had God, to make sure I had enough, just enough! I guess the point I,m trying to make is,I get it! You still impact my life with ur continued recovery, building a relationship with ur kids,just being funny, and being Peaches! You are in my thoughts and prayers, hang in there, you never know who, and how ur helping! Love, Judy
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